Upon waking up, the weekly cleaners came to clean the house. On top of that, I just got news that my dad is actually coming to stay over tomorrow! Dad oh dad, I miss you more than you can ever imagine.
But the guest room is having a leaking roof, wouldn't be nice to have my dad sleeping in a drench at night eh?
So yes, had to had over the management office to get some contractors to take a look at it. In the end, I only had 2 meals today, breakfast and dinner.
Oh also, it's me and my girlfriend's anniversary today. Had the initiation to post something up in facebook to show her that I'm not afraid to hide her so other girls would think I'm available. Still, it's like she doesn't give a damn? Maybe it's just me, because frankly speaking I was hoping for her to at least like the photo?
I gave her a call in the afternoon, she doesn't sound so good. Then I heard her grandma isn't doing so well, I hope she will turn out alright. But even so, it's like I'm just annoying her. Her voice tone.
I'm pretty sure I've spend time long enough with her to know when I should stay out of things, therefore not asking about anything and left her alone. Because anything I say might probably be used against me. Women.
So I came back home, texted her and all. Drinking chicken soup? It's the tastiest thing to me, the worst for her. See how different we are? Then on up of that I said goodnight with a "I love you". The only reply I got from her is "En, goodnight Dar." Seriously? I once recalled me saying that I only said I love you to someone when I mean it. But for her, she didn't say it like she used to. It's really a straight up thing, meaning she doesn't think I deserved those words anymore. I figured.
Sometimes I felt like I'm being used by her, she doesn't even listen to what we have to say. So dis-interested.
But whenever she speaks it's like everyone must listen. Since so, I stopped telling her about my problems. It's not like she would take interest in finding out anyways. I'm taken for granted I know.
And so I started blogging again, because somethings are never meant to be said. Therefore it's written. I hate my life in KL. All I feel is loneliness and pressure. No memory of anything to make me smile like the way I did in JB.
